i will say that being in an LDR is so much more a mental thing (connection), than anything i've ever been involved in. As a submissive, i was/am so connected with Master that to think of doing something that i know He wouldn't like literally drives me with guilt. Is that just my character? Or is that the submissive in me? A little of both? Not sure?
i know we are all different. Each Master, each submissive, each relationship. We all have our own rules and guidelines. We all mess up, we all learn.
(No i am not saying that i messed up with something. i am just making a statement.)
i think that the demi-sexual in me has been fighting with the regular me. i struggle back and forth mentally with relationships and where i am supposed to be.
Like what if i potentially meet someone and really like them (of course the meet would have to be with Masters approval). Am i supposed to stay Masters single submissive forever? Would He ever allow a relationship? If He did allow a relationship, what kind would it be?
Is anyone else in the same situation?
These are the things that i am thinking about.
i have to think more on the matter.
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